Sunday, April 30, 2006
1:35 AM Y
weeeee still loves mun
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Aiyoo..I dunwan to scold people but then i realli cant stand it! I should sae i cant stand her! Its like..omg, she think she beri pretty or what? Or that she got a damn cute bf and best frd? Yea right..I'm not that poor and off till wan to steal ur things..I have much better taste..whahaa..SH: I wan drink waterBest frd: What u wan?SH: I duno lei, lets go tog..Best frd: Put the things here loSH: I scared people steal----Okies, the people meant wee and mi! What shit.U think u beri pretty ar?I wan steal ur things for what...And she diao mi..omg, she's so off! Pui...hehe..So i cant help but keep staring at her oso..whaha..She soooo act! And pls..use ur brains...For god's sake, bring ur stopid wallet and valuables (if u have) out with u lar! argh..I need more common sense and tolerance..I have none! And my tear glands no good..aiyoyo..
Saturday, April 29, 2006
2:02 PM Y
anyone wans mi
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Planning to go back on next thurs..Straight after exams..Anyway, need to come back on sun.So i dunwan to stay here any longer and i missed home.Its been 7 weeks since i was last seen at home?Anyone wan to ask mi out nt?wahaha.And my mami sae must go back cos beri important..ha...Perhaps pull some stunts before i go home.I always act on impulse so i might just go cranky and spend my money on that evening.ha.Just somewhere lar but i might be too lazy...Ah...have ur own plans..Okies..Get it...Haizz..
Thursday, April 27, 2006
8:02 PM Y
parking idiot
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Check this out.. www.parkingidiots.blogspot.com Haha, jus as the name suggests, it shows photos of parking idiots?whaha..The thing is...the car plate number can be seen..haha..Can check whether ur car, relatives or friends' cars inside not..haha..
6:07 PM Y
new speakers!
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Haiz, tink tis exams i die jialat jialat again..As usual..My studies cmi..Bang head>..Not cleber nvm, but i'm not even hardworking..Bog bog...So chui...so dead...
Just sent wei to the bus stop..haha..Think my room can scare her off..so messy! Wahaha..eh gossip session..ha..After next week is ktv, shopping and badminton! Cant wait le lar..I wan go trip..anyone wans go anywhere?
Heh..Got a pair of new speakers! thank you..u beri silly..haha..Heh, now i can watch movies and perhaps blast music to kill my neighbour..whahaah..Heh..I'm excited cos i dunhave speakers lar..And watch movie beri pathetic and the online 933 always get disruptions, so now...I can use my receiver or mp3 to listen..whahaa.. Will that chiobu come kill mi?
Anyone got any idea how to turn a yellowish sweater back to white again?hai..how sad..i look at my mambo sweater, i wana cry..though i have a new adidas 1! hee...
Duno why, the 'soccer ball' cannot take properly 1..hahaha...
3:03 AM Y
die lar
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That day tiong jie, jing and me were so boliao, and did someting ridiculous online..ha..3 dennis online! So we went bonkers..We think its fun huh bt tink we traumatised him and this old man addy..haThe conversation was so hiralous..We got wee in first den benny and dennis..They felt confused..Addy asked us to change font..We changed..but to the same!Conversation window attack-- targets: dennis, benn and wee..Ben: Coke, i saw u come out from pvc at hall 3 just nw..
Den: PVC? PVC pipe?
jie: huh?
me: huh?
jing: ...(she's slow lar, duno whr is she)
wee: ...(gone to study, sae we crazy)
Ben: Ah..i mean MPV with a guy..somemore coke wear beri pink..
Me: Eh..dun tell wee...plsssssssssssssss....
Ben: I told him liao..
Me: .....( faint)..
Conclusion: next time wan try any stunts, cannot try at hall 3 area..haha..Think wad..rendevous ar?nono..haha----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Window conversation attack 2--Target:AddyAddy: they just action and words only..
Jie: I wan the link
me: i tink they AA lar..
Addy: what is AA?
Me, jing, jie: HUH? u duno what is AA?
Addy: i duno..
Me: generation gap lar..Play wheel of fortune..
Addy: ....( confused i tink)...den he wan vowel..
Me: wrong lar..u mus spin the wheel 1st and sae big money big money..Then sae gif mi a C!
Jie, jing: Faster spin...
Jing: u no money..buy what vowel..
Addy: okie..i wan C
Me, jie, jing: ...(peng)..sorrie no C..
..................................
3 Dennis: getting impatient..hee...After giving free T and N..
Addy: attract attention..
Us: FINALLY LAR...
conclusion: serious generation gap..whahaa..And addy needs his sleep..---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
We are sorrie for disturbing u all...wahahaa..
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
4:16 PM Y
post exams plan
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I have loads of post exams plans and things to get..I suppose to be studying now..but then..i'm bored and unmotivated...So many plans..to be realised in 9 days time..argh..
1)
Go eat!-- Sushi, pasta at taka, marche, fish and co, ben and jerry's, buffet, V8, dim sum.....etc2)
Go ktv!-- The last time i went was mel bday, thats like 3 mths ago?Wow..
3)
Exercise and get rid of the fats..jog, swim, ball games..anything under the sun..Wan to cycle!
4)
Go nite safari..5)
Go c migratory birds..4)
Go dancing! --
woman, go find the place! 5)
Go for a trip..
Looks like i have no money..Duno can go not..haiz..disneyland..food..whr r u..?And uncle, u sae go check, check till now..Woman, whr can we go?haha
6)
Work--
To clear my canvassing debt..damn..so not sumting i wan to do..
7)
Watch teebie from morn to nite! World cup..Can kill time..But i dunhave sports channel..uhuh..Not that i din watch now..the main pt is..morn to nite!
8)
Cook and bake someting decent enuff to eat...9) Watch movies10)
Play com games!
Any1 got games similar to sims? Like tycoon rollercoaster?I like tis kind of games..Somewhat reality bt in control..Or monoploy..Dino monoply..I wan games..Tell mi whr sell pirated 1 lar..
11 )Go shopping! -- 1) Liek the virgin wishper white birks, tabora magic garden pink..Actually, i like alot of them..hee..Eh wei, can change my prezzie nt?I wana think ..ha..
2) Contact lenses, perhaps new specs..seems like my eyesight is failing mi
3) Clothes? bags? i noe i got alot but its never enuff..uhuh
4) I noe i got a mp3..But its getting cranky..MP3! But thats last on my least..Ex lar..
12)
Get my hair done13) Meet up with my frds.. Alot of them--oo..wei, mel, sec sch frds, rong, xian, ben for my treat, fiona, reb, clar, gilyn they all, sy..Eh and who har...Or like this oni..wahha..Thats about it for nw..Wah, every week 3 days for woman..haha..
If i think of anything more..shall add on it..tts all for now..waiting for mac..hungry..
Someting beri beri important..Its not no.1 thing..Its even more important..TO GO HOME!!! I miss curry..Shall ask my mami cook..Food food food...
12:11 PM Y
physically and mentally
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Apparently, my gum is real weak..cant stop bleeding just now! Okie lar, not that kind of blood gusting out type but cant stand the taste of blood in my mouth..Haiz, brush teeth brush till bleed..What sia..I'M sick isit???I'm realli gone this time..I dunhave the momentum and mood to study anymore.. Argh..How can???But am feeling tired and moodless...And just feel like slacking, teebie and sleep...What's wrong with mi huh? Or isit is real too long? 9 more days to go but i feel its like eternity...Boohoo....I'm tired...Save me..DEad meat this time round...Failure in the making...Low morale..
1:38 AM Y
money
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Sian...think of the money that i have to fork out, i'm in a even more foul mood...Where to find the money? damn it...DL...No money no money and i nid fork out for all these stopid stuff..PiSSED PISSED PISSED...argh...Sian big time...Savings will be gone..All my savings the past few weeks..Hard earned savings... :( feel so sad...Money mpney..Why so dumb?We need to pay and we ourselves try to the stuff done? What crap and shit is all these...!!!! Think i'm eating abit too much..Just feel like stuffing myself with food..And i'm not full yet..Sot sot lo..NO....I cant use tis way..Oreadi a pig, fast turning into a super pig...Jialatz...Need to go workout! Wan to go swim! Ah...Just wan to perspire... :(
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
8:29 PM Y
hell
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Okies...i'm a recluse wannabe...Let me MIA for awhile...Need some time for my screwed up mood...sian..Not available..Wun be replying..Wun be online...BB
7:27 PM Y
SIAN...
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sIAN....so extremely bored..And frustrated...Life shucks...Sian...Haiz...Hen fan hen fan...Beri fan beri fan...
3:40 AM Y
fotos
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okies..photos from my bday..haha..I like the 'card' below..haha ..Okies, jing sae upload that foto..But action only, no peck..whaha..Woohoo..thank peeps..Got a 'soccer ball' from my sch frds..haha..Puzzle ball but look like can kick 1..jaja..Another cake in my fridge!
Sunday, April 23, 2006
3:32 AM Y
bb
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Dennis Lau aka Mister Bukit Batok.Age 23 Height 178 ( sure not??)..Help to vote him lar. http://www.mistersingapore.org wahha.. for effort..
Interests: Basketball, running, diving, trekking and playing the violin( where's the violin?)
Tell us something about yourself:I am an optimist guy with a never-say-die attitude. I live for challenges and I love experiencing things I have never done before. I also have a positive attitude, which I think is the most powerful thing that enables me to see the good in everything. I am a neat freak and I like to make sure my things are well-organized and kept clean all the time.
Why do you want to compete in MISTER SINGAPORE 2006?This is one of those personal challenges I would like to undertake while I’m still young. I see it as a good opportunity to test myself, widen my social network and advance my goals in life.
Which area of competition do you think you perform the best and why? I think I will do well in the Jabs Waterboys Swimwear and Fitness competition. It's a perfect opportunity to show off my lean and mean body. What is your most precious possession in life and why? My most valuable possession would be my family because I know they will always be there for me even when the whole world has walked out of me. ---needs to work harder
Describe your dream vacation. My dream vacation would be... to watch a meteor shower at one of the world's most beautiful beaches with my loved one.
2:33 AM Y
happie birthday to mi!
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Happie belated birth and earth day!Haha..Officially an old girl now..Thanks peeps for all the trouble and adding another sweater to my collection.. :) ..Its exams period but still got people come..haha.Woman, i noe u beri tired..haha.Run around for the whole day with the old man..But he is tired also right?Whaha..Looking down at the list..OMG..U FORGOT MY BIRTHDAY!!!! STOPID BEN...U R DEAD..GONA ASK U FOR A BIG PREZZIE..haha..Ruixian another one huh...Nuthing much on my birthday..Feeling tired and sleepy so just kinda slack in the lounge and went out for lunch..At least got a bithday cake..haha..But i already make my wishes when it strikes 12..heh..Happie belated birthday to me! May all my wishes come true..Only 3 lar..Not only for me k..Toking about mister singapore..The prizes are like so attractive and there are so many awards!So whats the chance of going back empty handed?Anyway, they look off in the fotos..Something wrong with the pics and the gay clothes..haha...The videos look better..An undeniable fact, they are so big size and well built..As in for looks... I have got no comments..haha..
Din study today..Tmr need to work hard..Hopefully..Wana watch teebie first before i go sleep..Nites..
Friday, April 21, 2006
11:18 AM Y
sleepy
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Time check --- 11 20am --21st april-Ah..I'm having my 4th paper at 230pm later..Cant wait for it to be over..Then it will be a few days before the the next..I feel so sleepy! And hence, a bugging headache..shucks..Feeling bored so as usual, doing my blog surfing..So many things to memorise but i din realli memorise, jus read through my notes..Hopefully later i manage to recall my stuff..hopefully...I just hate studying..I dunlike concepts, and now as i grow older, i hate memorising..whaha..That left me with nuthing..Er huh...*Faint*.... Nid to go back to my mind maps..But i'm feel like i'm going to concuss anytime..Lack of stamina and discipline...
Thursday, April 20, 2006
12:28 AM Y
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Day 7 -- com methods --Chuied..Maths paper was so difficult...And worst still, i freaked out and i forgot my stuff..Its realli oh my god..And this ger besides me keep sighing and but she like got soooo much to write about..And plus her runny nose..I'm like soo distracted..I not scolding her..wahah..But got this serious brain damage during and after the exams..SHucks..Wana cry...Duno hw to do..Realli dead meat this time...
Watching this wedding variety show..Wah..Now getting married also got so many patterns.. The biscuits look tasty though i'm not a biscuit person..whaha..And the sweets packaged till so nice..If next time u all get married, can give mi one not? Cos its like not cheap..1 box for 40bucks..wahahBut the box so nice..And now, its ' si dian chuang' not 'si dian jin' le lo...I'm not thing of marriage..ah please..jus that the show is interesting..haha..
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
3:37 PM Y
stopid insect
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Some stopid insect bited my lips and my thigh and my leg..argh...got a small bumps..sian..Feeling bored and its raining heavily outside..So i took out my cam...Now u now how bored i'm feeling~~~~When will i get my new cam? hmm after exams shall pester my jiejie..hee..Learn photoshop after exams! I want to play the game lei..But is it i return the cd to u le?whahaha
1:30 PM Y
chuied
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Chui'ed after yesterday's paper..So many parts din do..Haiz..I badly need to clear all my subjects so as to have a good enough reason for me to take my prerequsites..Oh no..my mind is filled up with thoughts i fail my paper, i cant take other subjects..haiz..What if they dun allow me to take all those even if i pass? Den i will be stuck here...What if i din even pass? oh no......!!!!!!! I'm am sooo sooo dead...Chui chui chui~~~~~~~~~ Furthest that i have gone to these few weeks was jp and those regular supper hangouts..I want to go out...I mean not only out of ntu, but out of boon lay...Ahhhhh....I need fresh air!
1:14 AM Y
haiz
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Oh no...cant concentrate...Nap was no good..Haiz...Feeling bored...Study 2 mins, surf net 10 mins... :( BORED BORED BORED....
Monday, April 17, 2006
4:53 PM Y
mom over
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Day 6 -- 2 down>>>Ah..not as bright is still ok but why add blur into it?! I have enuff negative points, dunid so many le lar...Aiyooo...How can i be so blur or perhaps stopid to think that i have 3 hrs to do my paper? Aiyooooo....I mean its realli sooooo cock..omg..Whats with me? Lost the feeling of exams after only a few mths?aiya..what sia..Really need to bang my head against the wall..Ended up with insufficient time..Boohooo...Its all over..I'm over...I beri scared..I'm not going to bring anything to july..I hope...Hopefully He, She or It get my message and watch over me..Next up is com methods..At least now got some idea what is pde and euler..Nid to work on it tonite and finish the exams paper....Firstly, i need to finish my lunch plus dinner, watch teebie and take a nap..hee..And here i come matrices, ode, difference table and pde!Need to gain confident, need to be fearless, need to be strong...Fear is in the eyes of the beholder..I hope i'm not one of them..
12:42 AM Y
gladful
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Ah..tmr is the day..Start of battle..3 papers this week..Pray i can passed this week smoothly..MOM, com methods and engine materials..*pray pray*
Worked through the nite yesterday..Haha..With wee concussing at near 5 and jing concussing on and off..Wahah..So farni..Tok awhile den she went back to sleep..wahaha..Thanks ar woman for teaching me pde..haha..And my uncle for mom..I feel like a primary school kid with a fierce uncle overseeing what i'm doing..haha..Kanjiong kanjiong..Need to remember to bring my matric card, my watch,sweater and my seat number..Kinda forget the 'exams feeling'..So the PE was like a rehearsal..Still as nervous as before but i'm ready to fight!..OOO..cant wait for everything to end..Poor thing, kop ur rubber, kop ur ruler and now u left with a yellow ruler plus a pathetic eraser..Ah..poor thing..I'm not the only one having exams lei....Ha, so the emperor want to fight the barbarians, i think...The ger in the show so cham...Haiz, why isit a person who's once so true to you, love you so much turned his back on you?But this seems so real..I mean u get to see so much of it in real life..Or perhaps experiences of it..It seems like a vicious cycle..Can anyone promise that nothing changes? So what if he decides that he dun want to? ....What can we do?..If only time can fast forward to the point in life we want, or back to our childhood days.I guess we fear feelings fade, thinking changes and time passes....* * * Okies enuff of my crap, thoughts and complain..Going to read my notes and go slp early..Nites nites..
Saturday, April 15, 2006
2:27 AM Y
sad..
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Suay mouth...Went out feeling good, came back feeling LOW, feeling a piece of crap..Brain with loads of crap..Low morale.....Chose the wrong way to 'destress'..Just an accumulation of emotions..I'm just angry with myself.As much as i dont want it to be, it turned out 'nasty' .Argh, cant control..My way to show my frustration, how angry and pissed i am at myself..How true everything seems to be..A reminder that..studying is just like asking mi to die..that i'm untidy..that i'm an empty vessel..that i dont remember..that i dont learn.I know all meant well..just that i'm too weak.So when it comes in a package? I'm just like a tap.Happie, depressed, good mood, foul mood, depressed, ok, sad, beri sad, beri depressed, ok, happie, depressed, sad..Eh my mood cycles nowadays...haiz..sorries..Can anyone make me feel better? Its not only these...Fear of what might happen...That everything might change...Only change dont change right?Exams always make me think too much, think alot about the past..Past that i dont want to be reminded of..Negative thoughts..I feel like dumping all these behind, forever..If there's forever...Ah mun is not around..Went for a 'holiday'..Look for her after 4th may...
Friday, April 14, 2006
12:35 PM Y
feeling gd
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9 hrs of sleep, a lunch wake up call, big rain....Yeah, i'm feeling good today..Hopefully off my negative thoughts..Ermz but think it will haunt mi again later..Going to have nasi lemak ltr, craving for it fooooor soooooooo long.....Strawberry strudel, peanut and sesame paste, baos...and i think got other food....heee...The thought of food makes me happie..This week meals was terrible..stomach complaining and acting weird..Faster faster...i wana eat!!!! Exams + public holiday= food delivery :P
1:24 AM Y
argh
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If only i'm not that weak, if only i work smarter, if only i work harder, if only i dont have a pea brain, if only i have worked for better luck, if only i have more time, if only people can understand me...haiz, then i wont be complaining here..Loser..screwed up loser..Tired, drained but lala land is not as welcoming as before..This few days lalaland seems to reject me, seems like it doesnt welcome me..Sleep is no longer as fulfilling.I woke up with a headache and feel as if i finish a run in that land of mine..I wished for a peaceful meal, peaceful sleep, peaceful talk, peaceful walk..Anything peaceful and makes mi forget my troubles..Running away from reality? yeah, pea brain is..Pea brain is feeling real down, real loser..Bring so much trouble to people around me..I hate myself..Total failure..Ah..nice 1..i feel like.....crying..shucks... Nid to go write my notes..ARGH!!! STRESSED...!Why must we face this everytime when exams come????Goned... Frustration....
Thursday, April 13, 2006
2:58 AM Y
piaing
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Agrh its coming 3am and i'm still struggling to do my maths pp..Ermz halfway through only.Why i need so much time to do? Cos i forgot alot of the concepts in front..Argh..FRustrated..Lucky i do the paper today.At least now i know i forgot alot of stuff.Trying hard to recap while doing and i hate pde!!!! Its driving mi crazy..Exams period means more entries for me.Feeling bored, so i jus blog.. :p
Sleepy and tired, all the stopid nap's fault..Nid to complete the paper and i will complete the paper as promised..I need to email my EM tutor, haven clear my doubts for the past yr pp yet, argh, procrastinate till now..Sleep less now, watch less teebie, work harder means i can enjoy my hols..Mind over stress, mind over stress..3 papers next week.I nid to faster finish my past yr papers!!!!!.AH..i nid to go...
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
4:50 PM Y
mind ovr stress
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Day 1: Mind over stress..Eh my first paper..The most relaxed paper..Ermz, my toking cock skills up a level again.The paper beri weird, the questions are so weird..haha..What spirtual prayer can u do wif a family member who is critically ill? I mean what exactly is the question trying to ask..Bang head..My answer: pray with him or her..whahaa..And i realised, meditation and breathing( belly bigger than chest) must be the best method to relieve stress..Cos i cant help but write it down for the questions..Autogenic training, ABCDE techniques, progressive relaxation, coping techniques..blah blah blah..Everything dumped in..byes mind over stress..Hopefully the crap is logical enough.Penalised for too much crap?Have u looked into the mirror and realised how lucky you are? nope? than u better do it now..Never knew that family, a place that is so close to my heart, that is a part of life can be so complicated for some people.Didnt knew till i'm here..I heard stories of broken familes, of runaway dads, of idle siblings of blah blah blah..Then i realised how lucky i am..Sometimes, i get angry wif my gege who fight wif mi over teebie, for my jiejie stepping on my bed in the morning while i'm sleeping soundly to get her clothes.For mama and gugu for nagging mi and the loudness of my dear papa..Now i know, all these make up the family..Here i am for 21 years and counting, a place i like to nua, a place i can sleep soundly, do whatever stunts i like..whaha..But then...as time passes, i wished we can just stop time..I can never forget the day they cried, the day we tried so hard to hold back our tears, the day you told mi everyone has to leave, the day i never see her again...I cant imagine i have to face all these again..We used to attend birthdays, in a few years time wedding dinners, gatherings and whats next? Funerals?Ah, i dunwan to think about it..And not forgetting, i have you who speaks like a father and acts like a mother..At times, like a silly small kid who do stunting acts..whaha..The last second before leaving might be a painful experience.I cant tell you and i wun be able to tell you how i feel.It might be a struggle of breathe or a peaceful going.After i leave, what left is the pain of my closed ones? I wish the day when i have to leave the world, i leave before you..oh no...! i cant nap well! headache headache..shit...
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
3:13 PM Y
papa wee
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Haven been going home since 2 weeks ago..I miss home..Din see my siblings for 2 weeks liao, think they, esp my jiejie will miss mi..whaha..Cos i always update her with my interesting life and interesting pple which lure her to sleep..hee..Parents and my aunt had been visiting mi and bringng mi goodies to eat..hehe..not forgetting my allowance..Ah..time of the sem for all these trouble..Heh and it means ayda wun be having her ride for 1 1/2 mths..Hee her favourite air con relac rides..Well, though i'm not at home, i still have a papa here to nag at mi.Ask mi to eat,cook for mi, ask mi to study, ask mi to behave myself..whaha.Ask mi not to eat so much cos i'm fat and it makes mi sleepy..But end up feeding mi wif more food...Shi de shi de.I get it i get it..And pester mi for my exam timetable..Please let mi sleep even if my timetable is packed..hee..I duno y, the woman is becoming more and more and more like a mother oso..whahaha..So the conclusion? I feel i'm back at 'home' again... :Pmug mug mug..so many things i duno and so little time..Gg sch mug ltr...bb..should i take a nap?
4:09 AM Y
pissed
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I'M SO SUPER PISSED WITH MY STOPID NEIGHBOUR!!! I feel like swearing...She is soooo damn off!!! She came and sae my teebie volume is too loud..Shit..Its 12 and now its 9..I'm pissed by thw fact that she always on her stopid com volume so high at nite and her stopid laughter while watching it..What shit..Only her teebie is teebie >? Only she needs to sleep??!! I dun knock on her door doesnt mean i'm not disturbed by her stopid teebie or laptop or whatever..U are sooo disgusting...I'm oreadi stressed till brain bursting and u are jus soooo off to step on my tail now..So what now? I hope u have a nitemare..I hope my teebie become real big and crush u ..And the volume is sooo deafening till u scream..And u wake up feeling u haven sleep a wink.The sight of u makes mi want to puke...Pardon mi, i'm a evil ger now.. Forgive mi for being so evil and bad mouth...hee...
3:34 AM Y
tired
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I'm feeling so tired..In a dazing state..Wana sleep but need to finish the paper..sweat..dUMb dumb dumb plus careless careless careless....bang head bang head bang head...
Sunday, April 09, 2006
7:42 PM Y
haiZ
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Think i realli sumting wrong...cham..I think i realli sot sot but it feels so weird..I just want to relac and not like tis..Think i too paraniod..Chan le...MY pms is realli real serious..Happiness lo, geting worst and worst..Flare up for the slightest thing and i',m feeling really really sleepy..Think its an excuse..hee..but i'm feeling soooo tired and restless eday den i feel like.......screaming...7 more days to exams..so much to do!!! too little time....Can we set fire and burn all the exams papers?hee...I beri lazy....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzSo... what?Eh just have to accept how things are...Eh there's nuthing wrong just that.....Anyway, was requested to call my frd to console her..Ermz i'm stunned..I realli bad at consoling if u realised, i dun console pple cos i tink...it dun work?i just duno how to put it into words so i rather write cards, send msgs or tag on ur boards..whaha..So..till now, i still haven call her or msg her cos i think everything i say wont help and at this point of time, what can i do to help her?They say we both gers, can tok about it bt ermz..I realli duno what to say..And we haven been toking for beri beri long..We dunhave heart to heart talks nor we have jus some crap session before..We aint realli friends in my definition..We are schoolmates..Closer but nt in that sense close cos we go out together with 3 other frds.Not much or zero contact and we cant click..okies..enuff of how bu shou i'm with her..They want mi to console her but i oso need consolation..ha..Anyway, if i call her, i tink i beri fake and will she tink i'm a busybody..What shld i sae? Eh..i heard what happened, are u okay?If she replied not okay..what shld i sae next?Eh take it easy, concentrate on ur exAms 1st..Leave it after exams? PLEASE..i realli think its loads of craps..How can she be ok..I went thru it before too..argh.U wun noe how painful it is till u are the 1 facing it..And trust mi, u are the only one facing it.Everything is said easier than done..No one can help except urself...If she replied she's okay, so its confirmed..She's lying..Duntink i will call her, i think i rather get condemned cos i realli duno what to say...aiyoh..*Pull hair...*:P Heee... :)
Friday, April 07, 2006
12:23 AM Y
i love wee!!
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Okies..My brain is realli saturated..I hope its becos i have been studying too hard the past few days and not cos i'm lazy and preoccupied..I hope...Cos this evening nuthing is done..Made u waited for an hour and i have got no idea there are no seats at the bridge and yet, i threw my temper..okies..i'm bad..have been throwing temper these few days..Jus feel aRGH..And i always feel so guilty after that..The immediate guilty feeling but duno how to say sorrie.hai...Neber study so went to eat roti prata..Think nuthing works better than slacking time..Concentration level is literally 0..Maybe realli should have taken ur advice bt i realli think i shld push myself further.Complete more work in a day..Pass my exams and have fun.Bt well, tday's plan failed..I oso wish i'm half like my brother, half like my sista, half like my father..But at the end of the day, i'm still the same ole mi, lazy pig, stopid, low understanding level..blah blah blah..Good in toking you de mei de, sleeping, watching teebie, slacking..Anything that doesnt nid too much of a thinking..low eq plus low iq = khm...I beri scared lar..keep having the sudden urge of a breakdown but i didnt.Dunwan to scared pple and i must be strong..whahaha..Think i should start eating my evening primrose oil again huh..I love Yous!!! wahha..Think i'm such a fake person tying to act like wad in front of others...So i feel extremely comforty in front of both of u.I dunid to hide feelings..whaha.And there's just so much to tok about, to share..Haiz, bt then again,tis woman gg to move out..U wana move in wif mi not? Then i how...hai...sad...*Dun be too sad over it, i'm sure there are other chances.. :p* I noe i'm right!!!!
Thursday, April 06, 2006
11:11 AM Y
demoralised
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Not in the mood and dunhave the time to blog...Past few days came back and took nap, and off i go to school..din realli study till quite late bt always feel so drained when i reach hall..Demoralised...argh...Foul fouler foulest mood...Cant get things right..Exams soooo near...Uncertainties...Stressed...plus its the time of the......
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
1:17 PM Y
yeah
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Yeah finished my drawing lab for good...Eh din realli get all the drawings right but should be okie..Jus that the people in front of me make mi abit confused, cos they draw different things but dun care lar, got the shape out i beri happie le..And the pic tt i din get right yday came out.Tried to draw the arc but the turn was wrong.Realise i nvr block my pics before..whaha..tried a few times to get it right..Too dumb...ooo cool..dunid to do the stopid module le....Thanks thanks.Lucky lucky..Nearly fainted last nite cos jing 'hug' and 'kiss' mi..eeeks..whaha..Chicken wings and coke,oo, happie..Sorries har, yday mood was bad..Huh.wishlist realli wish oni ar? wad eh..PS: I DUNWAN SOFT TOYS..wahah.tops, sweater, racket, bags, footwear..whahaa..etc etc etc..everything except soft toys..whahaa..Vouchers good lei, i can choose myself, best all buy the same..whaha...Came across a blog and the content is mostly about relationships..Eh or should i specify as past sad relationship / s..Duno why, but she always give mi an impression that she's upset, unhappie and jus beri moody lar..But like what you say, No matter how sad u are, u will recover 1 day, just that the time to recover might be beri long..But 1 day, you will still put everything behind you..So what's so good about past relationships? It teaches you not to repeat the same mistakes again..So what if you do? Stop crying, go bang ur head and hide in the room.We often blame others hw bad they are, maybe we should take a look at ourself and see whats wrong with us...Only when you learn to forgive urself, forgive him/her, forgive what went wrong, will you be able to to love someone again... :p ( okies, sounds like toking cock..wahaha..but i just love to tok cock) whaah..Thats why YOU ALL loves me...whahaha
12:11 AM Y
wishlist
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Saving money for plans( which i haven plan) during holidays...haha..Jing ask mi got wad wishlist...can give mi sports hse vouchers not?whahaha...Shiya wans to go tennis lessons but she so fierce, i beri scared...whahaha...If only like can go for a short trip during the long hols..so many so many things to do..and have to find 200bucks for canvassing, money for my contacts etc etc etc..But at least got my special sem, so it means got allowance for another 5 weeks but think only 50 bucks ba since its half the week..ha..no exams for it..Happie..Thinking of ways to save hard nw..ha...Jing suggested a spreading of manpower which means take turns go lectures..ermz..i tink she can count wee out...Think he will be sun tanning or playing tennis at src..whaha..WHich means...both of us take turns? oh plsssssssss...................Hmm...glad i passed my ce quiz..Considering i left out 1 of the most impt b=notes and completely clueless during the quiz, i got a c..beta den nuthing..and i tink exams shld be able to do it..shld be able to push to a b ba..I hate tday!!! Gg for this terrible 'exams' with zero confidence..Okies i noe, need to face it but feel so crappy when u spend so much time and yet get nuthing out of it..SO SCARY!!!!! huh..how how how...help help help..!!! :) xie xie ni...counting counting and counting..time realli flies!!
Monday, April 03, 2006
9:48 PM Y
wad the fuck
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Stressed stressed stressed...freaking stressed...This is so irritating...monday blues...Moody....Pms....Venting my frustration and showing my mood swings signs again..Irritated easily and losing my patience.( if i ever have it)...drowning in cranberries..wobbly legs..signs of cramps..giddyness...SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SIAN....sad..feel like crying...Get me out of it!!
9:05 PM Y
sian
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Feeling like a piece of crap now...Too many things to worry about....More than shitty
Saturday, April 01, 2006
1:53 PM Y
pri sch
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Hmm any idea cant 3 boss isit a young ger ard 20???? I tink she realli looks like my pri sch frd..omg...if i see her again..shall ask her..whahaa..cos i lost almost if nt all my pri sch frds le..wahahahaa
