When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad,"you'd shake your finger at me and ask "How could you?" --but then you'd relent, and roll me over for a bellyrub.My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together.I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listeningto your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walk sand runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs," you said),and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.
Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate.I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions,and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love. She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still welcomed her into our home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy.
Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate.Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love."As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would have defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.
There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf.Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets.You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family.
I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter.It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness.You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers."You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!"And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility,and about respect for all life. You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?"
They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you that you had changed your mind --that this was all a bad dream ... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited.I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room.She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come,but there was also a sense of relief.
The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her.The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood. She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear randown her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body,I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured"How could you?"Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said"I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, whereI wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place.
And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?"was not directed at her. It was you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of. I will think of you and wait for you forever."

*Came across this while doing my aimless blog surfing.Tears start flowing down when im reading it.Lo, the 1st and only time i remember read till i cried was perhaps the book man and boy.And right, this article made my heart sank.
Im supposed to be studying!!!

1 word. Devastated.
Overestimate myself.
For sure, im not going to pass.
Now i really need to chant: Grant me the serenity to accept things i cant change.
Left with 2, something that i can the last bit for some hope.
I need to do something about it.
Grant me the wisdom, not the ability to differniate, but the wisdom for exams.
SIGHS
Bangs her head against the wall
:(

Lo..In less than 7 hrs time, i will in structs exams.
I think with a lappie in front of me, i just feel like blogging or blogg surfing.Somewhat doing stopid stuff that is totally not useful for exams.Wahaha.But well, at least i kept myself away from msn.No msn.Eh in fact, i'm watching you.Haha.Offline mode.
Hopefully today paper not too difficult to handle..Wobbly liao.Must clear pre-requsite!I will..But, haven finish study..tsk..sms..

Step by step, day by day.Its getting closer.
I cant believe time passed so fast!
Loads of fireworks within. Loads of plans.
I'm all safe and sound in this crazy world.Success seems so far from me. Call me unambitious or what, life is at peace.Big money is always good but there are just too many things that cant be bought.The only plan i think is big is to open my curry house.whaha.With homemade lemon tea, lime juice and teh peng.Shop space i also have le.Shall psycho my mami to rent hers to me for 500bucks.Waha.I give her another 1000 help me cook.Tsk.Allowance included.haha.Its going to be the hippest curry hse in tampines neighbourhood.ha.With menus catered to sch kids too.Ha.But first, wee gona pay me 500 a mth for membership.If not, my curry chicken and rice and teh peng will be gone for good!
I'm a true blue tauruean.I cant get myself off a zone im comfortable with.I also wished to experience and discover but there are just too many people and things that i cant bring myself to do without with.How great to bring everybody along.. :)
Nuthing much in hand except numerous calls to passed my modules.Liew.How sad can life be..
I want to faster go work! nOT THAt i dunlike sch life, just that, i hope to open for biz soon.whaha.And my fashion line, gona sell some great stuff in neighbourhood area.ha.Perhaps, the space upstairs can go as tuition oso.whaha.Great.
Entrepreur to be.Dun be surprised if i'm named hmm..Curry queen in future.Haha.My 1 stop shopping, eating place..

Another dreadful envirnonmental paper done.It was better than i expected.Was kinda nervous and having jitters.But well, i'm done with it.Not enough time though.Who on earth ever have enough time?*cross fingers*
Yupz, structures tmr.U noe, i think i will be even more nervous.And now i'm flaring all over cause it seems like my ability to draw bending moment diagrams, simple ones, are gone! What the heck!? No..This not going to happen to me! BMD, if you hear me, please reply, cause i'm worried sick.Im not going to go into exams hall only to realise i cant freaking draw BMD cos its the bulk of the paper thats keeps everything going, in the right way.Gosh.Hope this pea brain mental block will disappear in 30 mins time.Or perhaps, when my dinner is here for me to recharge and my saviour to do someting to this brain.I must get over this paper! Virtual, moment area, everything from head to toe, left to right needs dear BMD.So..No matter at what cost, it must be back...
Watcht the battle of wits last friday lo.Think the plot abit farni at the back, think they cant think of anything better..hahaahhaaha..
4 more days to home sweet home..To some fun and more jitters..Anticipation..Ready for a month of workout?Need to get into some exercise regime before i get fatter and rounder and rounder.Lol..Jogging plans.Hopefully this sleepyworm can make herself crawl out of bed at 10 to have a jog and den, to the world of sims.whahahahaha
Tata..
In search of some lost knowledge
If you feel all stormy inside, say a prayer.
Chant: Grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change; the courage to change things i can; and the wisdom to know the difference..Cool

Oh no....I m feeling 'sick'...I'm sick of going for exams..More like i'm scared of it...
Oh no....I cant imagine what i'm going to do if i din make it...
Oh no....I feel like puking at the thought of it...
Help me..Im drowning....
:( Gone..Im goned... Nothing makes me feel any better , not even the thought of after exams... :(
Not sims, not ktv, not sleep.Im willing to give these up, only for the sake of 6 months..
Can someone help me tell Him im trying very hard?Im trying to focus.Im trying to accept things i cant change.Im trying to change things that i can.Im trying...Can You just let me get passed..
:(
Post exmas 1st plan: shirley bday plus farewell party.How interesting..In 2 years time, we are having a Dr leow.Liew, how time flies.We sure are getting old...
Birthdays, weddings, babi 1 month birth and 1 day, you all will be invited to my funeral..Lol..Make sure to bring some fanciful stuff for me.A stalk of flower also can.Just anything nice or tasty.Ha.Crementation looks painful but burial means more elongated pain since worms and maggots will start biting me.Plus, its expensive.So how?Throw into sea and die once again?Lo, i cant swim very well and i dunhave diving skills yet.Perhaps someone can suggest some cool burial..Please, less painful ones...
I want to open for biz..Fashion, tution or curry house..Daydreaming..I hate lappie,it is distracting...
And distressing..
No one to study with me
Im sure going crazy over environmental paper..
Scary
Calculations and calculations
Unprepared.Not enuff weapons for war
I just hope to pass everything for this sem
I must in fact
God bless
Back to work.Hopefully.

I'm tired, drained and absolute sianess... :(
This week seems to last a month.. ARGH...fREAking bored and numb about exams..sob...
Wee gone home.Hostel alone..
Unmotivated ar and the rain looks so appealing for me to sleep...
Darn lousy feeling...
Why exams so loong?
I want to go home...
I want to eat crabs, curry, seafood soup...
I want to buy sims..I want the expansion packs..
I want to get out...
I want to cry..
I want to sleep forever...
Haiz...I just hope to pass my modules..I hate to memorise stuff now, neither do i like calculations..I just hate to study..Hate to study for exams..Haiz, why will the results be out?Who can undestand..
Only my sims to look forward to...
Darn...

Turning into a potato..I need to work out...sigh..Eat,snack, sit, sleep...lo....fat butt...Munching too much during this period.
4 more to go...
Unprepared...
Wondered how i fare for the past papers..
doidoi..
Wobbly legs..
Get the freaking exams out of my life..
I want to play SIMS..but first, i need to buy the original version, cos my old one is spoilt.
Want to get pets expansion so that i can train my pet dog into superstar entertainer..And guess what, i gona name him Wee..whaha..Wee sit, wee down, wee come..Wee, bog...Might consider a pet rabbit named xj..waha.Cool..
Saw the nokia new la amour series.Lol, pink this time.I like the previous bling gold version.Gona check it out.
Want to do something to my hair after exmas.Its getting messy...
1 more week,i need to persevere, though my study mate is officially out of this study jail..
Notes are tasty, so are exams...
A Fierce week going to be over and yet another 1 is coming..But i guess conseutive quizzes had trained me to be better in hadling situtations like this, ITS STILL WORLD APART.
Good luck..
Esp to shy eyes, we are 2 pathetic souls fighting our lives..whahahahaa

Anyway, i think late nights are taking its toil on my health.Giddy spells yday and i thought i'm falling.Thank God, im ok after i woke up this morning.I hope i dun fall sick this 3 weeks.And if possible, woke up earlier! I'm sleeping like 4plus and waking up at noon.Record broken at 4pm on monday.Great right?It was like...oh man, u mean i slept till half the day is gone?!Yes, sorry, u cant turn back time.Uhuh...ItS 224am, i hate laptops! hehe..Think i wun sleep so early.Running out of time.
Hope i can stay healthy, hope everyone stays healthy throughout this period.Hope shy eyes finish drawing soon.Wahahahahahhaa..
I must finish it! Burph

Long time no see me...Been busy mugging with somewhat productive times in school.But unfortunately, my first paper din turn out good.Pray hard again.What's with mi?Not knowing how to do exams except life science and stats.Uhuh, thats all i can think of papers that i know how to do.Its not sian, but fear...I'm scared.... :(
Something to be proud off, i steer clear of laptop for the time being at least.Studying in room is alot more productive than at home but studying in school is triply better.See the difference?Its not only the teebie, the laptop but oso the fm.Heh.Thats why i only get to blog now...kek..after so many days...Though i still get distracted, restless and sianess, it was world apart better.HAaha,i hope something can reflect out of it.Anyway, my new study hangout is great!Heh.Great place, great atmosphere, with aircon and occasional movie break if we like.Kek..But how can i ever give teebie up?Its a must before sleep.haha.Hmm..Guess now its oni weekend soccer matches that we get to catch...How exciting...
Next week, next next week will be hell.So beri fun.A test not oni on knowledge, but a test on my determination and tolerance level..
OOh...how great..
I still got 6 days to whack all my stuff...BB..Jiayou jiayou!

Ltr going to be my last day of lessons for this semester.Er..Nuthing to be happie about cos exams is in 5 days time! Going to attend a tutorial and 2 lects plus a quiz tmr and i'm halfway done.Tips oh tips, hopefully tmr got more tips.heh.Been noting some tips from tutors.heh.Got d for my transport quiz but confidence level for the exam pp which is next wed is abit up..*cross fingers*..Cos lecturer gave tips on the second part.For the first part, hmm, need to depend on myself liao.Ha.Hopefully..
Anyway, my last quiz for the semester is on my last lect.Erm 430.At least i still got abit time to study tmr, provided i dun nap too long.heh.Mcqs with so much theory.Wish me good luck..
Tired oh sleepy...
Need to study other subjects from tmr cos i got soooooooooooooooooo much to study and i cant afford to spend all my time on transport..Time time time.Time is running out!...

I think if yv and wee everyday go cant 11 and eat spring chicken, the claypot stall will closed down sooner or later :) Spring chicken with claypot free white rice.Get what i mean?haha
I feeling darn sleepy la.I woke up at 12 plus and went for lessons.But now is only 11 plus and i can feel i'm going to concuss soon.Perhaps yday sleep too late.Crap.Used to be able to study till wee hours and take a nap or 2 to recover.Now?Impossible..Staying up late for a night means a chui tomorrow.Haiz..Really old liao le la..How how how? I need to sleep less so that i can complete my piles of work.Next week is my first paper and i still have loads to catch up.Well, though pe is nt tt impt, i cant help but worry about it too.Cos..Its filled up wif pages of computer stuff that i noe nuts about and the worst news, i haven read any of it..Duh...DEad meat le la...haiyooo....
Only thing to be happy about? I got 100 for my foundation online quiz with the help of my sch mates.And plus my 80 marks 1st quiz.Im securing abit of marks here.Foundation is crappier difficult and now, i think i have more chance of passing.Heh.SHouldnt i be happie?
Still have 1 last quiz on fri and i need to score better cos i oni get 58 for the 1st quiz.Hope to get 80 for the nxt quiz for a better grade.Y?Cos i need it to pass exams..duh..Other quizzes din do well, so, darn have a choice...
And nxt wed paper.I need to noe how to do!Flunk the 1st quiz..siah....
Think im going to slp soon, im tired..

Went canteen 11 to eat dinner and while i'm getting drinks,
the guy behind me said: ribena, da bao.
drinks uncle: you are embarrassing me, i cant speak mandarin.
guy: wei se me?
uncle: blame it on my parents! They din teach me.
guy: ni zhen de bu dong han wen? wei se me?
aunti: speak more mandarin, young man!
guy: xie xie
So whats so special about the conversation?
Heh.The guy is an ang moh.haha.Dun you feel guilty?Even foreigners are spending so much effort to learn and use our mother tongue.haha
Damn cute la the guy...Interesting...
*Terrible, feeling terrible...lousy la..Time of the semester....:(

Stressed stressed stressed! Suddenly, im feeling all the stress.Oh man...2 weeks to exams and you wouldnt want to know how packed my exams are.Darn..And im feeling distracted.I hate lappie.I duno why, whenever i'm in front of the lappie, i will digress from my work and start clicking.Okies, stop blaming the intranet.Cos sometimes, i will start looking at my wardrobe and try on my clothes, not forgetting my eyes glued to the teebie..Huh?What shit am i going through?I think i will die soon from the collaspe of the tonnes of notes..Gosh..Isnt it abit too late?Though im catching up with the tutorials, i feel that that i dun realli understand what im doing... :( Argh...A serious symptom is im not feeling that sleepy now considering its oreadi 230am and yday had difficulty falling asleep.Signs of stress?Man..Exactly 2 weeks...I need to double double double up...
Its like my last chance...
God bless...

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Graduation."done"
A job."soon"
Go around the world." i went europe". "wishing for taiwan :)"
A driving license."in the midst of achieving"
A cruise trip, getaway to sunny beach."its raining too heavily nowadays"
The bag." currently my gucci is the bag"
Shades
Toto Money."i sensed it near"
Losing fats."very difficult but trying"
Play a game of tennis with a serve.
Nitendo."not neccessary"
Lots of clothes and shoes.hohoho