May the courage stay within me till the day its been realised...
Gosh, been waking up later than i expect everyday.Whats with me? Trying to convince myself its ok not to exercise..Diao, unbelievable..
Tmr meeting is cancelled so shall do something meaningful. Think i will go shopping on friday then! Been some time since i last shop alone. Hopefully i can find stuff to my liking and not that off budget.. :)
Feeling restless..I think im growing more and more lazy.. Time flies like nobody biz and im way behind time. Catching up is such a tedious process.How i wish, or should i sae everybody wish that we can just throw evrything behind and do stuff we like. Like real..Its not going to happen, not so fast. argh..Bored..Complains complains.. I will be complaining till the end of school time..Naggy and naggier..Always succumbing to sleeping god.How great..While im complaining about my ever dull life, others are living in misery or what else..So im still lucky :p
Growing more and more attached to my family. Farni how mentality change over time. Used to love going out during seconday school days. The yearn of freedom and the lack of it during primary school.Now? I LOVe to stay home, more than ever.Think staying in hall is making me dull and bored.No place is better than home! But well, now im seeking the courage to get out of the comfort zone.To try something new, to get out of my family arms to experiment.Still got quite some time on hand for that and i hope the courage,the desire i have now will still be there..I think some time in life, you realli needto try something crazy! But i have yet to think of sumting crazy but still safe enuff. WAHAHA..

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Gosh, can faster send me back the last form not? Kan chiong lei..Im left with that form and i can hand everything up.. Lo, i think the supervisor must be dily daly-ing *sulks* I want to faster settle it!
Hmm, woke up abit late today at 11.Argh planned to woke up at 9am but i was stuck to the bed... :( Manage to do the tuts that i kinda planned. These 2 days been quite according to plan. Thank God.
Glad everything is going on fine. Glad most of us got it. Glad my help is useful :)
Wandering thoughts again.. Really hope this 1 1/2 years will be a smooth sail..Hope my plans can be fulfilled..It will be a great step towards the next level of independence! Its never been so clear and sorted! It will be an eye experience and a test of tolerance. Definitely. Eh not sure july will be free not, hoping to join my sista for a trip, but not sure when she going.hmm..See how it goes...
Planning to buy something on thurs. I will get something for myslef but i haven decide what to get. Long list la and my budget only allows me to get 1 of the 6 items i want.. :(

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Its been a great weekend! Got a good rest, quality time spent with family, with doggies, with friends and with myself! Went home and concuss after nite cycling and continue sleeping after lunch. Hmm quite fun and not tt out of place after some time, luckily got benny around la..
Went foot reflexlogy with my papa and sista on sat night. Damn good la, felt good after that.. :) Played with my 2 darlings too... Just too adorable la..1 black 1 white, kiki and ayda :) :) :)
Went to da bo gong after that. Neva been there efore and heard they going to shit the temple, so i went to take alook and hoping for some wealth..whahahahahaa..It was sooooo spacious and stragetic there. It got lotsa devotees but the place is no where near to crowed due to the super big piece of land..Had some great fun there and not forgetting the free carrot cakes we got... How great can the weekend be!!!!
Sunday was spent eating again..whahahaha..My bro treated us great dim sum plus great shark fins and yusheng which cost a grand total of 640 bucks for 9 pple...whahahaaa...Freak...too bad cant find wee, if nt he will have a sumptous meal too..lo..i tink my mami wan c him la..but well..whahaa...too bad, not the right time..
Steamboat-ed at jieying's house..Quite interesting toking to her swedish frds.2 in fact..Hmm..Now i think im less afraid and ready and perhaps adventurous to try....lost 80cents k...hehe...end the weekend with a gathering..
Anyway, my frd got into the same co as me!!! Hehe, now i have got someone to go work with me..So i think i will stay in hall..great..eh but they haven gif me back the last form..*cross fingers* Think we shld be doing the same things ba..I hope to go on site frequently!!!! I dunlike so much office work..*cross fingers*
Bridge done...But it looks....NOT OK.. but well, at least its kinda done..Waiting for testing and report writing..and we are done!
Great weekend...
Hopefully everything goes on fine
..... In for a critical period, yet again

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I feel that im only 1 step away from killing YOU. Im super pissed doing the bridge with you and im sure teresa feel the same way as i do.. I nearly wanted to scold him. His vocab of vuglarities made me feel like trying it loud on him too :( I almost let out FUCK UP...wahahaa, but i remained calm but obviously pissed... I dun understand guy's world of mars.. They dun see the point that we gers see and they aint respecting it. I hate you! I will nvr ever do anything with you again. So what you think yourself as a coolie? Nobody ask you to join us, you came in urself. So if you have any grumbles, pardon me, but just fuck off.. Piece of stubborn big potato. SHOW SOME RESPECT FOR US!
Im feeling lucky, i duno why i get this kind of luck..I just hope to settle this fast...Anyway, can someone enlighten me about smart casual? Jeans and polo tee?hahaahahaa
Gg cycling soon... Im feeling lazy and hungry... Gosh...Wake me up..Free ride home though :)

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Its going to be weekend again.. I love weekends :P but it gona be a busy one..ermz...
Placement done. Just need to fill up the objectives and send back for clearance. Need to print out some forms and bingo, hand it up to SAO. Nuthing fantastic-- $600..erhuh erhuh.Turn out she on mc and annual leave so i just received the stuff.. 730am report for 5.5 days. Im stuck in tuas for good. Lol..And the 2nd half gona be difficult since wee wun be around. Hai..My God, grant me some company man..Im going to do data collection for most of the weeks,complete with a report writing for 2 weeks. Great. I hope my friend get it tmr too and i wun be so lonely :) Just sent an email back to p**ss****e, only stating its for personal reasons. Hopefully they dun come bugging me. I din sign anything u know, but i know its still wrong. Bleah but i prefer to be more realistic, this is definitely a better choice though its not going to be an easy job. But at least, i think it will look good :) And im not sure wad site activites is it exactly cos its not realli stated but i hope to go the jackup! I think i will get a tour around. Indeed, im excited about it. Lol..but first, i gona settle so many things! And it aint easy at all...*sulks* but i can do it :)
Gona be a busy week. Our stopid bridge is still in process, testing next thurs.. Like finally, though i din do much. Hopefully next week will be a fruitful week..Got lotsa things to acomplished. I need to catch up and i need to go out. I hope more ang paos come in. Well, going america club next friday for a sumptous dinner! Heh. Happie la can..
Think i can settle the placement by next week when im done with all the admin stuff :) :) :)
Im much much luckier than alot of pple. I got quite a few offers and some are still struggling to find 1. Im trying as much to help out and hope all turns out well... Everyone going different places for different experience. Kinda looking forward to it cause i guess it gona be challenging. Hopefully not too chim for me...
Yes, im saving up and wee is setting the target for me by contributing a 100 to my depleted acct of 20 bucks..And cny means i have some money to save but i feel like getting a pair of shades i saw at marina roxy, dun tink it gona be cheap and i feel like getting a pair of skinny jeans plus a bag..Gosh so many things but i need to save up..argh.. Can i have my bday prezzie 1st?Thinking of means to get money but cant find any except to save more..whahahaahaa...Im richer by like 400 this cny and my mami still give me my weekly allowance of 100 though im oni in school for 2 1/2 days..Cool, im saving the bulk of it except for transport..
Going for hall9 nite cycling tmr. Dun ask me y and im neither a niner..whahaa..But well, benny aint too, just tt dennis dua wee.. Gona be a great workout and wee is going my hse aft tt. .It sounds weird eh, so stinky to go bai nian.Bleah.I duno how la. Ltr he stink till my ma condemn den jiu hen hao siao...wahahaa..And i think none of his cantonese jokes work..bleah...

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Heh had a great CNY with great food and angbaos..whahahaa.. My papa is the God of fortune. Thanks to his blur-ness and being so generous. I managed to win a grand total of $130 on the gambling table. Heh and my dad lost 300 bucks overnite.Whahahaa...
:) Nearer to my saving scheme... :)

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Firstly, i post a question to wei (somemore i think oni u read my blog) WHAHAAH.. Why isit u can find dresses and i cant find any?! Please enlighten me.haha.
Im in a hyper mode cos its going to be Chinese New Year. Im feeling and looking great cos i'm nw a health freak.Whaaha. As in i go exercise k and im liking the feel of it, once again! Heh. Going again later before heading to marina square for dinner! Yippie yup yup cos it symoblises a piggy yeear ahead with full sumptuos meal every day.ahahaa. Its just an excuse for good food..
Anyway, while at ADM on vday, we got 'interviewed' pui..hiralous..
Shall upload pics when im back..hehe.. Cos i gg exercise liao.. Wee slacking again.... :)
Happie new year my frds!!!!

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Its time to buck up and do some serious work. Aint a smooth week in terms of study. Need to realli work hard to get out of it. Shall work out my study plan today for recess week and do some work tmr and there i go, to enjoy cny before im back for a few lessons and then the semester break. Argh, how fast can it get? I need to work doubly hard if i dunwan to get jitters during the exams. Hmm..and maybe quizzes...haiz..Wake up wke up... No time to waste, no more time to waste and no more failing please..argh...
Feeling super hungry..hmm...
Where are my googles? haiyo, my jiejie googles in fact...
Cant wait for reunion dinner! My good food and ang baos! Are we getting any GST rebates? Heh, then it will be an even happier cny.. :)
Happy chinese new year!

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Happie Valentine's day! :)
Heh, nuthing fanciful or getting caught in crowd. Gonna be a quiet day tonite :) cos every day a valentine's day! Omg, lame. Hehe. Dint get any gift except a card and ermz, A SOFTOY FLOWER? hahaha. Was chatting with my frd the other day and she's telling me how superficial gers can get. She told her bf not to buy flowers last vday cos its money wasting, AND.. IT end up she black face whole day cos everyone carrying flowers. Wahaha, totally agree about that. So, im not gona be in the crowd without the flowers.hahahahaa.. Yeah, wee sae flowers cant eat. Though i agree, but well, i love flowers. So what..hahahaa...Interesting day it will be, cos its going to be in school.Gona leave , wana leave NTU soon so i think its a great cheapo idea.hahahahahaa...Hopefully, not a lot of pple la.. If not, it will be a big gathering.hahaa..
Im leading a healtier life. Went badminton today. Think im starting to love back the things i use to do :) Wana go gym on thurs. We paid for it k, must use it to the max. Gona go for a tan and swim on sat morning too! Great. Im healthy and feeling great! Join in the healthy line! :)
Anyway, i starting to think people are taking me for granted. Wonder is that the correct term to use though. I feel like telling them, it needs to take effort and continous finding.U dun get things dropping from the sky but i duno how to convince them. Its not that i'm exceptionally lucky but its becos i tried evry single chance but they just want the easy way out. If only its sooo easy. God, please help them wake up the idea. Cos i duno how to help them at all, its not that i dunwan to help but its not really within my means...I have tried but its up to them...
Last but not least, hope everyone have a blissful year ahead and every day's a great valentine's day! :)

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Im currently in cadd lab trying to do last minute revision for quiz later.hehe..Cant wait for cny to come! Had a sumptous weekend and left me doing nuthing much in terms of study. Went for a bbq on friday at ADM that lefts me smelling like a horrible bbq pit.Wahaha. New hangout place. Sat went chinatown to bask in the cny atmosphere. It was a super warm day. Had porridge at the usual place and had some free muah chee. The boss was too good and i'm left with no choice but to buy some. But everyone saes its nt bad so its worth the money.hahahaa. Went for jc gathering plus dan farewell after that. We had waruku jap food! Hehe, i was full la but i cant resisit the temptation to order something plus kop from pple. Hehe i like the 'room' with tatami..And i think we were super duper noisy? The turnout was 12. Not bad la.. Had a great day and its always good to catch up with my jc mates.Haha, dun ask me why..Just reminds me of the stopid things we did in school.Time flies...Its been 4 years since we are out of jc. LOL. Everyone changed but i guess, still as crappy or even more. Everyone has made their choice,i sup;posed in what they wan to do so its time to realise them! In another 2 years ba, evryone will be out in the scheming tiring tedious working world..how great...bleah..
Not going out this wed. Dun feel like getting caught in the crowd last year..hahaha..Somemore going to eat out on fri so will be in hall..I lazy lah, as usual..My mami wants me go home early this weekend, cos reunion dinner, so i shall be a gd ger, have a great feast this fri and go home nua....hahahaaTill then...

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Hmm..had bbq yday nite. I was damn full and initially, was scared that security will chase us la. Apparently, there are alot of nite activities on top of ADM. Stars gazing, kite flying, playing sparks and ermz, us bbq-ing.. :)
Got accepted but i think might face some problems since im suppose to do the attachment with the NUS people. So well, I Tink i have to start early and perhaps end a bit late. Maybe its 3 whole months.....Hmm, see how it goes.. Presscrete still with me.. bleah..If confirm working with this current company, means i have to wake up at wee hours. Oh gosh, 730 to report at tuas. How fun and great.. And worst still, when wee finishes his attachment and go for SS, im done for.. Stuck in hall with no friends, nuthing.. But well, everything's not confirm yet..haiz...
I also want to go holiday!... Haiz, everyone is going for SS and i have to wait till next year. But its ok, i will go next yr.haha.. If there's company, i will go far like europe. Haha. IF not, i will settle for asia and go for europe grad tour, tentatively..Im unadventurous, can not..haha..Dunwan to end up being lost in a world of whites.. I would rather get lost in a world of free concerts.Anyway, i guess most prob i will be going alone for SS since everybody is going this year. But well, perhaps it will be good.I duno, but it is like stuff a year later, so isit too early to plan?haha..Hehe. Stadiums visiting, oh man....How great if there are matches..haha..Im sure i can get strong financial support, if not, haha, it will be in sentosa.. :p But europe trip, its definitely on!Save up save up for the big day...

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Bleah..Cant remember what i have been doing the past few days. HAHA..Hmm...Went gym yday and did some workout. Woo, healthy. Went megafest after that. Benny, wee and me in hope of a ipod video, but some rich guy eric got it after buying $50 worth of studs :( Spent 10 bucks and i got nuthing! But i got some clothes for $8. Cheap deal la..haha. Nevertheless, fun nitez :P
Sian, forgot my i banking user name. Hello, i only registered it a few weeks ago! Damn it. Gona print out form and send in the request. Duh. Pissed off...
I also want go summer studies! Dear xiaojing, Please save some money..haha..Sounds great..summer studies plus grad trip. How great.. Money money money, thats it...Japan or europe..hehe. Hopefully its feasible as we move on the last study year and dun dua me! Cos it sounds something great to look forward too.Errr, more than a year though. No worries about no covo, cos still can go..aahahaa
I have got lots of work to be done but so busy over the weekend la.
Tmr bbq, sat gathering. Lol, y am i so popular? pui...whahahaa..Hmm..Popular..
Lucky lucky lucky me...
!!!!!!!!!

Heh first of all, thanks wei :) heh..
Anyway, i was called by a company this morning to go for an interview on wed morning. I agreed to go though i already have a company. But i dun wan to miss this chance though i'm not sure how it will go. Shall go for it and see what happens before i decide my next step. (whereby there's a BIG possibliity i will get condemn) But if im so lucky to get into that company, well, perhaps its worth the risk of getting a scolding. Or pehaps a good valid cool excuse is needed. But well, it might not be so easy afterall. Shall see.. Which means, i need to go home to get my clothes! And the interview is at pioneer sector which i have got no idea where. Argh..Busy week la..Thinking of what to do.. Anyway, what im supposed to get ready for the interview? Hmm nervous la. Haha.But still, im glad they reply me. Did i mention, suddenly, the companies are coming in (good news, bad news, neutral news).. But by far, i guess this is good..Well, din mention it to any of my course mates cos might not get through..haha.This kind of throw face thing, dunid te;;

This is the first time im writing from home. Not becos im feeling bored at home but I am feeling devastated and i have no one to talk to. I hate this kind of feeling and i hate not been able to talk to anyone and i hate i cant control my tears. I hate myself. I hate myself for been petty. I hate myself for not been able to put my thoughts into words. I hate myself for feeling so moody.
Even if i did put what im thinking into thoughts, no one will understand . In fact, u will oni think me as a spoilt petty brat.
Yeah, plans are going to be carried out
But im not included in it.
Im been left out
Whats the use of telling me something thats been decided. I cant see the point. I dun see any thing.I cant feel it at all.
I cant share the joy.
I saw a big plane flew past. And i can only watch it helplessly. I cant feel the joy and excitment in it cos i have got nuthing to do with it.
wo shuo xiao qi de hua but i cant get myself out of it.
Dunid to ask me what happened cos i realli duno what to sae..
Im in a blank state now.
I cant find the right person to tok to. Neither am i looking for one.
If only someone can show me the road

Tmr goning to collect my approval forms. Gona see what they have in store for me but i'm not a bit excited about it. Anyway, think gona tell them my school starts 29 july so i dunid to end 1 week later.Hopefully it works. Shall try tmr.
Mood_less..Ate alot of choc, but it aint helping
Petty words but i dun care..I just hope no one comes and disturb me. Im not abit interested in anything you all gona do so dun even bother to fill me up with all details. I not abit interested and i meant what i say. I dunwan to know. So dun bother..
Im only intereested in shopping now. Just feel like buying whenevr im not in the mood.
TTs why, Im always broke.
But why would i need the savings? I dunid..
Damn everything..
Messed up..
Just leave me alone.
Petty.Yes I am.
:(

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Graduation."done"
A job."soon"
Go around the world." i went europe". "wishing for taiwan :)"
A driving license."in the midst of achieving"
A cruise trip, getaway to sunny beach."its raining too heavily nowadays"
The bag." currently my gucci is the bag"
Shades
Toto Money."i sensed it near"
Losing fats."very difficult but trying"
Play a game of tennis with a serve.
Nitendo."not neccessary"
Lots of clothes and shoes.hohoho