Wednesday, April 12, 2006
4:50 PM Y
mind ovr stress
♥ You'll never know the real me.
Day 1: Mind over stress..Eh my first paper..The most relaxed paper..Ermz, my toking cock skills up a level again.The paper beri weird, the questions are so weird..haha..What spirtual prayer can u do wif a family member who is critically ill? I mean what exactly is the question trying to ask..Bang head..My answer: pray with him or her..whahaa..And i realised, meditation and breathing( belly bigger than chest) must be the best method to relieve stress..Cos i cant help but write it down for the questions..Autogenic training, ABCDE techniques, progressive relaxation, coping techniques..blah blah blah..Everything dumped in..byes mind over stress..Hopefully the crap is logical enough.Penalised for too much crap?Have u looked into the mirror and realised how lucky you are? nope? than u better do it now..Never knew that family, a place that is so close to my heart, that is a part of life can be so complicated for some people.Didnt knew till i'm here..I heard stories of broken familes, of runaway dads, of idle siblings of blah blah blah..Then i realised how lucky i am..Sometimes, i get angry wif my gege who fight wif mi over teebie, for my jiejie stepping on my bed in the morning while i'm sleeping soundly to get her clothes.For mama and gugu for nagging mi and the loudness of my dear papa..Now i know, all these make up the family..Here i am for 21 years and counting, a place i like to nua, a place i can sleep soundly, do whatever stunts i like..whaha..But then...as time passes, i wished we can just stop time..I can never forget the day they cried, the day we tried so hard to hold back our tears, the day you told mi everyone has to leave, the day i never see her again...I cant imagine i have to face all these again..We used to attend birthdays, in a few years time wedding dinners, gatherings and whats next? Funerals?Ah, i dunwan to think about it..And not forgetting, i have you who speaks like a father and acts like a mother..At times, like a silly small kid who do stunting acts..whaha..The last second before leaving might be a painful experience.I cant tell you and i wun be able to tell you how i feel.It might be a struggle of breathe or a peaceful going.After i leave, what left is the pain of my closed ones? I wish the day when i have to leave the world, i leave before you..oh no...! i cant nap well! headache headache..shit...
