Wednesday, August 30, 2006
11:05 PM Y
sad
♥ You'll never know the real me.
I tried not to, but still, i did it again. I didnt want to, cause i want to' look good' but heart and brain dont work together, do they? One crazy nut who needs to learn to be braver...Heh perhaps i need to practise some disappearance act too.Its not easy not to 'communicate with anyone the whole day k, to roam around alone and most importantly, to switch off the hp...Its been ages since i last did that, perhaps its time to breathe some air..Nervous, its like life or death junction.Ha, pessi about it but still, hope for the best.I realli cannot make it as a person in a whole.I just shucks big time and why am i not improving myself?Lonely fellow down here ranting.Ranting ranting ranting, bitching bitching bitching...Happy am i not..I'm feeling lost in space, i'm nervous, i'm tired and feeling sick, i hope to get out soon.Perhaps i should go shopping tmr, the urge to vent my frustrations, my doubts..Insensitivity..Life is so boring and monotone.Its as if i were to choose to die myself or 10 people around me to die, i wont hesitate to answer: " JUST LET MI DIE!"..hehe..Tts not a sucidal note..LOser..I want to go home! I wonder is it the time of the month...Not full not full...Perhaps its always better....
